Angel, my kids, the dog, and I said, “Good bye, Tennessee!” as we passed into Missouri. We were on our way to Colorado. God called us there so that I could finish my ministerial studies required for ordination in my tribe. Making the decision was easy once we felt assured that this was God’s deal.
We’d been there before – stepping out into the wild blue yonder with nothing but the assurance that we were doing what God wanted us to do. He blessed that obedience, making every curve straight and opening the doors that needed to be opened. It was awesome to watch God work and experience those blessings. We knew what God did for us during that first leap of faith, and we were confident He’d do it again. It was going to be awesome!
Two days later, we arrive in Colorado Springs, in the evening. The trip had taken much longer than we anticipated. There were a number of extremely dangerous situations, and the realty agent called about the house we were selling – we were going to lose money on it. We were tired. We were frazzled. Nothing has gone the way it was supposed to – nothing. This was not fun yet.
Then we arrive at our home. Wow. Nothing like it was supposed to be. It was a dump. At the end of this journey, this was not the welcoming new home we anticipated. Angel and I were at the edge of giving up and going back to Tennessee. As I stood there, trying to comfort my wife, holding her close, I whispered to God, “What happened? This was your idea. We’re doing what you asked us to do. Why is this happening?”
30 Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, “We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it.” 31 But the men who had gone up with him said, “We can’t attack those people; they are stronger than we are.” (Numbers 13:30-31)
The people were weary. It was not easy getting where they now stood – at the edge of the promised land. Then when the scouts returned with such bad news, they were ready to go back to Egypt. Well, except for Caleb.
What was the difference? Caleb remembered the promise and the keeper of the promise. He knew that nothing ahead of them was a problem for God. Compared to the power of God, giants might as well be gnats. After all, he did split the sea.
In that dark night in Colorado Springs, we were still very much concerned with the future. It looked harrowing, but we’d been here before, watching God do great things. Could we trust him to do it again?
Ultimately, we did – the foundation upon which we built our trust in God was on that promise made so long ago. He was God then, and He is God now.
Have you ever been on the edge of the promised land? Are you there now?