I bought a laptop table that is meant to be pulled up to you while you sit in a chair. I’ve been tinkering with it ever since I got it, because I’ve never been satisfied with it. It does not work the way I want it to work. So, I decided ti try to fix it.
I rounded up some tools and began to take it apart so that I could rebuild it the way I wanted it. Unfortunately, I broke it.
So now, instead of being marginally useful, it’s now absolutely useless and I am furious with myself.
11 Then Moses raised his arm and struck the rock twice with his staff. Water gushed out, and the community and their livestock drank. 12 But the LORD said to Moses and Aaron, “Because you did not trust in me enough to honor me as holy in the sight of the Israelites, you will not bring this community into the land I give them.”
This wasn’t the first time Moses got water from a rock. In Exodus 17:6, during their wilderness wandering, God instructed Moses to strike a rock to get water. But this time, as they are campaigning to take the promised land, God tells Moses to speak to the rock instead.
I’m not sure why God wanted Moses to speak to the rock this time. Maybe God wanted the people to see that God’s power alone was responsible. Moses thought he knew better and paid a price. Interestingly, God still made water flow from the rock – He still met the people’s needs.
Just like I tried to “fix” that table, I’ve tried to second-guess God’s handiwork. I’ve tried to “fix” circumstances and timetables to help make situations “better.” Time and time again, I’ve done this. Sometimes things worked out “OK” but other times I really messed things up. The thing is, God knows what He’s doing. He doesn’t need my “fixes.” What He wants is for me to trust Him, do what He says, and allow His Glory to flow. It will always turn out better – I will be happier with the result, and He will shine.
Hmm… maybe that’s the problem: maybe I want to be the one who shines. Much to learn, I have… much to learn…